Plurk Termination

Due to lack of time and use of the site Plurk.com I have decided to terminate my account there with emediate effect... this is the first of my accounts that has to go...

I am going to be cutting down on the time I spend on the Internet in favor for Real Life.
so there are some accounts (with i cant be arsed to state here) that no longer will be useful...
If I havent used them for over 2 months time I do not see a use to keep them around.
This blog is safe for now but I wont have much time to blog.
/ Myravon

Rainbow Dragon I am

You Scored as Rainbow Dragon You are a Rainbow Dragon,the most superior of Dragon kind.You can breath all elemental breaths.You are kind and gentle. In any way you are attractive.As it says,you glow whith all of the colors of the rainbow.You prefer to live where ever your soul takes you. Rainbow Dragon 100% Green Dragon 83% Blue Dragon 67% Red Dragon 33% Black Dragon 17% Yellow Dragon 0%

Nightmares

What can one do when Nightmares are destroying the little sleep one try to get.

I wish I knew the answer for this but I do not...
I have been haunted by nightmares for a while now... they have grown in strength and length and sometimes I wonder if I am ever gonna be free from these damnable haunts...

I get maybe 2 or 3 hours sleep per 24 hour cycle and then those damn Nightmares come right back to haunt me.... I really wish to sleep in order to recover strength but they wont let me!

I feel down, cold.. rotten and a bit broken Inside...the worst time of the year is at hand...
The Depression months have started....

For those whom I know might read this I apologize for being this way, I cant help it as everything just seem to be going wrong no matter what I do at the moment.
I know I should not be on-line at all in this mood but going off-line would make things worse as I would be so very alone with nobody really to talk to about how I feel deep inside...

Emotional mess is nothing I can share with my family as they would unfortunately not understand how I feel deep down in my core... sometimes I wonder if anyone can as I can not understand fully how I feel myself ...

I do not know what I wish to do or what I want...

200$ a month I already pay the damn Collection Agencies or what ever you call them in english I have no energey or lust to find out what proper name is... for books with I never orderd and I have stated this MANY times now and Just gettin fed up with everything.

I dare not answer the phone as they started to call daily about their money and it is making me so very depressed... but not like they care...
I paid this bill back in 2006 and now their back for more money since they sold it on to another firm that collect bills from people... and this firm sell it to another who sell it to the first...
I am fucked no matter what I try to do!

Is my life no fucked enough as it is?
This is destroying me slowly but safly and i cant do anything about it...


What am I to do?

If I am online I will depress others with my dark mood and if I am offline I will just feel worse.
I need help and I dont know were or how to get it...

I have a hope and light left ... they know whom they are...
Without their support I would not be here at this time

Confused Emotions

I was watching the movie Wall-E today and I am not sure on how I feel...
It brought forth feelings of happiness and sadness at same time...

It is hard for me to write down on how I feel and even harder to even talk about it...
I dont know exactly why I am even trying to write about this... I know that I cant :S...

Whatever... Ending.

To honor a friend

This is to honor an old friend of mine who has passed away to a better world...
I wrote those poem shortly after I had gotten the news...
I think that I feel ready to share it with the rest of the world now...

This man whom it is dedicated to was my friend since childhood...
We used to have allot of fun walking in the woods talking and exploring...
Until cancer took him away from me... it doused his light at age of 25..
I don't think the pain of his disappearance will ever fully go away...

Your voice has become a whisper, a silent stream floating in the wind.
I honor your memory ... you whom have left us for a better world.
May your soul forever rest... I will always miss you...

Dearly departed, a memory you have become...
We vow to keep you in mind, we shall not forget what you done..
My your soul be put to rest, you whom have left us for a better world.

May your soul is rest in peace, may the light guide you
We still hear your voice, its carried by the wind..
You who walk amongst the spirits, may the Ancients Guide you.
May your soul forever rest... We will miss and remember you.

Wash away the memories of flesh and walk with the light
You whom have passed away, I hope you finally find the rest you deserve.

May your soul is rest in peace, may the light guide you
Forever the wind shall keep your voice and your memory..
You who walk amongst the spirits, may the Ancients Guide you.
May your soul forever rest in peace for we whom remember you miss you dearly.

Sleepy Day

Sleepy!

That's how I feel today I don't know why but I am just exhausted
End of the day is far away but I am sleepy NOW not later :S
There is allot of things that I wish I had the energy to do but I seemingly never have.

*sighs* I just I had more energy to do things...

My Sweetheart

The Love of my Life

I just wish to introduce one of the sweetest, cutest and most adorable girls ever

Seraphine Snook!

Guess what? She is not only beautiful but intelligent too!
If I were to find a single flaw in her I would have to search forever as I could not find any.
She may call me silly and blind but if thats what I need to be to love her I don't want to be anything else for I love her more then infinity!!! more then the sun itself!

If love could build bridges I would have been at your door already lover ;)
Every second without you feel like days and every minute feels like a year...
You are my the reason I start over new, I wish there was enough words to describe how I truly feel about you my love but no language has enough words to explain what my heart say...

All I can say that you make me feel whole again, you make me feel brand new!
You give my heart a warm feeling every time I think of you.
I miss you so much every time you are away and not a minute pass without me thinking about you, what you are doing and how you are doing....

My Sun, my Moon... my Empress and my Beloved Angel, I love you.

- Myravon Lamont